“Heart Beat”

Revised Nov. 21, 2011

Shae Crawford

“Heart Beat”

 

I’d like to pluck the glowing orange sun from the sky and

Place it in your chest, because maybe then it’d warm

Your heart up enough to change your mind…

……………………………claim back lost time.

Oh, but my heart’s begging me to let you go,

Or rather, I think it’s a mixture of broken pieces of

Shredded thoughts that remind me of the bitter cold,

The truth I cannot let go; the truth I painfully regret……..

The truth that overthrows my nervous system, taking

Care to spread the wintry spell, creating apologetic,

 Icy chills over my arms, landing in my soul like

An invisible assassin, ready…………………..…..

To murder the memory of you, ready……

To introduce me to a life anew—

A________life without

You

I have made my choice, and now it’s time—

Time to seal the pain…………………………………..and

Time to erase your face…………………………………….and

Time for bright, new days…………………………………….….and

Time to overlook your ways; it’s time to ignore you, and

Time to face the truth; and ‘tis now my time to forget

You

And, as painful as it is to admit, the thought of you forever

Leaving and relieving the pain in my heart is…………..….appealing,

And I never thought I would say this, but you can’t make my heart

Stop buh-buh-buh………..…………beating, and I can’t make yours

stuh-stuh………….……..start again; so, get out of my hands.

Farewell to you now—it’s been a long time coming.

So please tell your heart to stop pretending—

I’m standing strong……………..……………and

It’s what I have to do, so that I……….

I can…………………………………………….

Let go of………………………………..

You.

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About shaelynncrawford

I am twenty-three years old, and currently pursuing my BA in English from WTAMU. I have been a natural writer since I first learned to put pen to paper, starting with Haikus and love songs. I write for myself. However, upon making the decision to step out and share my voice with the world, I now write for others, too. I am using this blog so that I may develop a more profound public voice, and also so I may interact with like-minds. I am currently developing a novel that I would like to publish in the near future, and so I am sure some of my ramblings will be linked with the subject matter in my novel. I truly hope that you enjoy my work and that I inspire you to let go and speak your mind. As I said, this is a new process, and so I ask you to have patience with my vulnerability. I'm sure this process will work well for me, and I cannot wait to share my voice with you. Thanks for visiting, and I hope that you stay awhile!
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